Well, you could make references to persona games when telling your stuff. For example: I have to be friendly with someone I don't like just cause in my University the projects are aways in group... so I think of them as Links, something that is boring to do but will help me sometime hahah (some Links are great tough).
And yeah, I had some, uh, problems in your age too. Just remenber that every day is a day to grow. I WILL leave my mark in history. That's what keep me going. That's what I decide to do. So you will find a goal to you. Just don't give up and live each day. From where you are, life just become even more full of problems. But that's no excuse right? LET'S LEAVE OUR MARK IN THIS DA*M HISTORY!
And I'm reading your story too. Really good, keep creating, never give up.